Was feeling particularly upset this afternoon, working to keep my head off stuff that otherwise are prettie petty, but heyy... on a gemini and espeically this mind of mine, everything's exaggerated. So yeah... minding my own business, humming this tune when i suddenly stopped dead in my tracks and thought..

... 'what the h*ell am i humming that song for ehh?'.

Then i went thinking again, prolly the reason why that particular song jumped to mind, coz was heck... it was exactly how i felt at *dat* particular time and hey, singing it in a way made me feel a *bit* better. Though technically it was a sad song to begin with, but nvr mind, belting sad songs helps me deal wit stuff better than a shrink would ever be able to do in 10 sessions.

So yeap.

N now here i am. Putting *dat* particular song on replay along wit Kenangan Terindah and singing to my heart's galore. Never mind that i might cause heavy rain. Which i dont really mind anymore. Rain's growing on me, for some reason.

Realised it a few days back when i was at Bt Caves home. Sitting crosslegged on the front porch with Tiger curled up in my lap and watched while rain pelted the road in front of me. Was kinda calming in a stoopid way, to see rain fall like that. I had half the mind to get up and just stand right there in the middle of everything but as i didnt wish to spend the remainder of my hols in bed, i just.. sat there n enjoyed the rain.

... mcm bodo aje kan?

Ntah la. Maybe im just feeling the blues for a bit. Blame it on the fact that i hv dreams where people frm my past *and present* are coming to me saying and doing stoopid things that i wished were true, but arent. N never will be.

Aiyohh...

.. i shud prolly put some Pussycat Dolls on.

Oiii.. enough wit utterly depressed posts abt my dreams lar!! Even im getting frekking annoyed wit all the gloom im projecting. Haiyohh.. but why larrr do i feel so horrid inside.

... shud prolly hit the clubs tonite. Nd a pick-me-up. *sigh* Tp malasnya, adoiiii...

Ciao, peepos!!