Everyone's left for Raya hols. Im still stuck here.
Mama and Abah hv already left for Bt Caves home. Im officially d only one left in Putrajaya. Even Along and Shasha are back home. God, i sound *so* pathetic.
Funnily enough, i dun seem quite to be in a rush to head off home. Prolly coz i knw my hols will start sooner or later. Prolly coz i hv this feeling dat something's wrong, yet im not able to put my finger on it. Yet.
Anyway, i've had another *nice* dream. Which basically meant i woke up rather, erm.. tensed coz i knew it wasnt reality, but just a dream. Ahahaha.. U knw those dreams where u wished it were true, but deep down u know it'll never come true. Yeah.. i hate those dreams. I'd wake up longing for something not within my grasp.
N that sucks BIG time.
I hate it, i hate it, i hate it.... God, i nd a drink.
U prolly think, eh, this girl puasa or not. Ckp main lepas aje. News flash. Aku tgh tak boleh puasa. Ahahahahaha *evil laugh* So i can prettie much do anything i want skrang nih. Although running around naked is not one of them. N never will be.
I shall not be the source of lust for *anyone*. Ehem..
Ahahahahaha... okie, people. im just being super mad. Im just irked that my head and heart do not agree wit each other. Ika will kill me for sure, but i hv those faint echos of feelings i had for someone surface again.
Stomp, stomp, stomp.. go, go away. Ishh..
Its sickening. To the point of me feeling as though running thru a brick wall wont do me much good. Owh, never mind d fact that my source of lust looks super-duper-delicious these days. Urghhh.. AND he wore the same pants and shirt that distracts me *so* frekking much. Arrghhhh...
N how the *hell* am i supposed to shove watever im feeling away when he stands barely 2 inches away frm me that i can smell his perfume that he knws i think smells sexy??
N damn he has gorgeous hands.
He's just taunting me, u knw. I knw it. Deep down, he knws i hv something of the hots for him, n he's pushing me as far as he thinks i can go. No, i wont snap, but i'll definitely go crazy lar kan. But like that's something new.
*sigh*
Shit, it looks like rain. Better head home n pack for Raya.
Double shite.. it's duit raye season. Im *so* broke.
